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Big Bang: One for the Good Guys, Epilogue


After the season ended, Jared went home for a while to visit his family, just to clear his head. It was good to be there, to see his parents and everyone else who was happy and excited for him. On some level, he knew that his parents had already forgiven him for what he'd done, but that was easier to accept now. He watched all the other teams finish out their seasons on TV, and it was a little sad not to be out there, but it wasn't the miserable experience of the past five Octobers. This time he thought, it's all right. Maybe I'll get another chance, and more chances after that. He hoped so, anyway.

And as it got cooler and the end of October came on, he knew it was time to go back.

He showed up on Jensen's doorstep on the first night of the NLDS playoffs. Jensen didn't look too surprised or unhappy to see him, or maybe he was just pleased with the six-pack of Newcastle that Jared offered as he opened the door. "Hi," Jared said. "Want a beer? You going to watch the game?"

"Sure," Jensen said, smiling a little. "You went for the good stuff, I see."

"It's a bribe," Jared said. "I was hoping you'd let me sleep over."

Jensen paused for a moment, and Jared thought maybe this hadn't been the best way to go about things. But then he shrugged and stepped aside so Jared could come in, saying, "I know it must be tough on you, not having me around all the time now. Did you have to sleep with a night light?"

"Don't flatter yourself," Jared said, too relieved to come up with anything good. "You think the Rockies will do our division proud tonight?"

"I think they'll get swept out," Jensen said. "You know that team is full of punks who think they..." And then he stopped, because Jared kissed him.


Jared ended up holing up at Jensen's place for most of the off-season. It made sense, really, since Jared had an apartment that, although decent, still felt a little cold and impersonal, maybe just because he hadn't done much to it yet, while Jensen had a nice house. This was important, because apparently Jensen went into hiding every winter and hibernated for at least three months. He explained this to Jared when it first started to get cold, but Jared hadn't known he meant it quite so literally. The first time he got into Jensen's bed, though, he sort of understood. It was dangerously comfortable, and Jensen liked to keep his bedroom cold so that he could sleep under about 40 different blankets, including a giant down comforter. No wonder he'd spent so much time on the road complaining about hotel bedding.

Actually, the very first time Jared got into Jensen's bed, he didn't much notice the bedding until later. They were finally getting a chance to try out everything they couldn't do during the regular season, and that was more than enough to occupy his attention. Jensen was as mouthy and challenging in bed as he'd been throughout the season, making Jared work for everything. But when he finally fingered Jensen open, too impatient to go slow or prep him quite as much as he needed, and got his dick into Jensen's ass, Jensen just melted underneath him. His hands fluttered against Jared's back, eyes wide and started and almost helpless. He said, "Oh," breathlessly, sounding surprised, and Jared moved deeper into him, more turned on than he'd ever been in his life by reducing Jensen to that state, putting that expression on his face. Then Jensen, making an obvious effort to recover, sneered a little and said, "Is that all you've got?"

Just for that, Jared drew things out longer than he'd planned to, made Jensen do a lot of begging. But much later, falling asleep in the dark with Jensen dozing next to him, he said out loud, quietly, "I'm still in charge here, right?" Jensen didn't say anything, but Jared saw his mouth twist into a little smirk, as pleased and self-satisfied as could be.


Jensen hadn't been joking about being lazy, apparently. He did the basic work to stay in shape, but not much beyond that. One day during the first week they spent together at Jensen's place, Jared left him passed out in his bedroom upstairs, unable for the moment to deal with Jensen's angry crankiness when Jared tried to wake him up. The next time Jared came upstairs, Jensen was awake, lying on his stomach on the bed and eating a Pop-Tart. "Hi," Jared said. Jensen looked at him with distrust. "Hi," he said, as Jared picked up the Pop-Tart box. "Don't touch the brown sugar. I like those ones."

"Uh huh," Jared said, inspecting the contents. "Have you already eaten, like, four of these today?" Jensen made a noncommittal noise.

Another morning, later, as fall was easing into winter, he tried to wake Jensen up as usual, and couldn't, also as usual. Jensen was curled under the down comforter and another white blanket, this one crocheted and raggedy, that his mom had made him a long time ago. He was very much committed to staying asleep, enough so that Jared had to shake him and then wrestle with him even to get him to open his eyes and glare.

"It's not normal to sleep this much," Jared said. "Come on, I need to run some errands. Come with me."

"Get off me," Jensen said from under the blankets. "Don't even touch me."

Jared sighed. "You're missing the best part of the day," he said. Jensen snarled and punched him, and not like he was joking around. "That's gonna bruise, you fucker," Jared said, and Jensen said, "Good. Leave me alone."

"The more things change," Jared muttered, and went out and ran his errands for an hour or so. When he got back, stomping snow off his boots, the house was quiet and Jensen was still in bed, asleep and warm. Jared sighed and climbed in with him. Jensen, waking suddenly, gasped with outrage at Jared's cold clothes and skin pressed against him. "FUCK," he said, "don't get snow on me. I hate you," but Jared draped an arm over him, warming up already. Jensen, looking resigned, let Jared pull him in close, and even settled his head against Jared's chest.

"I bet you'd sleep fifteen hours a day if I let you," Jared said. "How did you ever wake up for day games?"

"My schedule is all different during the off-season," Jensen said. "Now I'm hungry," he added sadly. "Did you buy food?"

Jared smiled. "I did," he said. "Do you still want ice cream? It's melting on the kitchen counter."

"Yes," Jensen said. "Why is it melting? Go put it away. Your shirt is still cold." But he didn't move to get away, or push Jared off.


Some days, even after Jensen had slept well into the afternoon, Jared would find him napping later. After a while, instead of complaining about it, he started finding exciting ways to wake Jensen up. Splashing water on him was obvious but produced a furious-wet-cat effect that Jared never got tired of. One day after this treatment, Jensen sighed and glared and announced, "I want waffles."

"First of all, it's two in the afternoon," Jared said, "and we have waffles in the freezer."

Jensen rolled his eyes. "I want real waffles," he said, and put his head back under the blankets.

"Do you have a waffle iron?" Jared asked, which Jensen seemed not to find worthy of a response. Jared knew perfectly well he didn't have a waffle iron. He patted the lump under the blankets that was probably Jensen's shoulder. "Come on, get up," he said. Then he realized that he was considering, with some resentment, where the best place would be to find a waffle iron on a Sunday afternoon.

"Why," he wondered out loud, "am I treating you like some girl that I knocked up? At the beginning of the season, I thought your problem was that you'd been spoiled for too long by too many people, and here I am thinking about making you breakfast. Even though it's going to get dark out soon."

"It's because you love me," said Jensen, a little muffled but coherent enough. He sounded smug about it.

Jared felt a pang that he tried to ignore by focusing on how obnoxious Jensen was in every way. That was just as true now as it had been on the day they'd met. If he'd gotten Jensen under control the way he was supposed to, Jensen would probably be making his own breakfast right now, or maybe even in the morning like a civilized person.

They tried to avoid talking about what would happen next season, since it was much too early to tell, but they seemed to have entered some new understanding without exactly meaning to: they were together now, partners, a team. Jared hoped they'd both be back next year, but he knew that would hold true even if they weren't.

"Yeah," he said thoughtfully, quietly, almost to himself. "Yeah, maybe," and Jensen sighed loudly and said, "Don't say anything sappy. I feel like you've been wanting to say something sappy about next season. I don't want to hear it."

"Next season," Jared said, "is going to work out just fine."

Jensen sat up, raising his eyebrows. "Yeah? Do you have some insider information about that?"

"Not at all," Jared said. "But I'm right about this one. Trust me."

Jensen smiled his real smile and said, "I do," and Jared kissed him.


"...never mind all that now. This other stuff is what we'll want to hold on to, with winter coming along. Never mind the monuments."

-Roger Angell, "One for the Good Guys"




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Aug. 5th, 2009 09:44 pm (UTC)
That was lovely! I adore baseball fic, and this one had some very interesting characters in it. Love that the team stayed mediocre through the year instead of having a miraculous comeback, and love that Jensen's reaction to finding out Jared's contractual obligation concerning him was so subdued and quiet rather than the blowup Jared had expected. In fact, there's a lot about Jensen that we and Jared still don't know...any plans for a follow-up?

And ditto on the GO CUBS!
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much! In terms of a follow-up, I think I need some time away from these characters for now, but I guess it's possible at some point down the line - I'm flattered that you asked. And it's always good to hear from a fellow Cubs fan, since there don't seem to be enough of us in fandom. :D
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Aug. 5th, 2009 11:04 pm (UTC)
I know nothing about baseball, I care not a fig about baseball, but your Jensen is beyond adorable, all angry and snarly and hiding under piles of comforters and it's just too cute. Jensen's interactions with Jared - and Jared's cheerful tolerance of the abuse (and giving back just as well) ... it's made of squee. Really. :D
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:22 pm (UTC)
Aw, thank you so much!
Aug. 6th, 2009 01:25 am (UTC)
Really great! I love snarky, grouchy Jensen. He was so cute in his hibernation stage :) Loved Jared's reaction to him - calling him a wildcat! The whole thing was hilarious!
Thank you!
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:22 pm (UTC)
No, thank YOU! I'm very glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 6th, 2009 02:31 am (UTC)
This was really cute!!!! Very sweet & I love your Jared & Jensen.

Aug. 6th, 2009 07:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much!
Aug. 6th, 2009 02:45 am (UTC)
As you know, I loved loved loved your fic from the moment I read it. it's so much fun and I totally felled in love with angry!jensen... every time I read it, I love it more. and... well, baseball. how could anyone resist? *♥*

thanks again for everything!
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
No, thank YOU. I'm so glad you enjoyed the story and, of course, your art is a total delight. I'm going to have to upload a few of those icons, pronto.

Yay, we made it!
Aug. 6th, 2009 03:57 am (UTC)
I love how different this fic was to the usual sports fic. It wasn't about turning a mediocre team around into an amazing one, or anything like that. Jared was making a comeback, but it wasn't in a dramatic fashion either. But I'm not disappointed! In fact, it made the fic feel more like how things are in real life.

The real story was in Jared and Jensen's relationship, and I love how quietly that evolved. Actually, I love how subtle and engrossing the fic was. I HAD to read it all the way without stopping, because I was so bemused by how everything was unfolding. The domesticy at the end was utterly charming and funny. :-P
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for the kind words! I really appreciate the feedback.
Aug. 6th, 2009 04:35 am (UTC)
I am resisting the urge to make a baseball analogy about this fic... my brain wants to say knocked it out of the park, etc.... but I won't do it! I won't!

Because this fic is way too good for cliches. It was smart, and funny, and real. It showed an affection and understanding of the game of baseball, and affection and understanding for the two lead characters. I appreciated that you didn't have Jensen go all drama queen when he found out about Jared's deal - you took the high road, and made the character more interesting in the process.

I enjoyed the hell out of this Big Bang - wonderful, wonderful work!

Aug. 6th, 2009 07:25 pm (UTC)
Wow, thank you so much! I'm so glad you enjoyed the story, and I really appreciate your kind words.
Aug. 6th, 2009 05:10 am (UTC)
Okay, seriously? This fic is the BEST THING EVER. I want to read about these guys for the rest of my life. Great character voices, great baseball writing--great work!!!
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm very flattered, and really glad you enjoyed the fic.
Aug. 6th, 2009 03:48 pm (UTC)
This was a pleasure to read, especially enjoyed the portrayal of Ackles competence and Jared's responsiveness to that and acknowledgement.
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 6th, 2009 06:00 pm (UTC)
Awesome! If I love something it's sports fiction!
I liked the idea of Jensen being a grumpy, moody asshole. What I loved best was that Jared didn't change that really, just took the frustrated irrational aggression off a little. So Jensen is not a bright smiles and petting kittens person, okay. That really was what made me love this fic best.
... and the thought of J2 in those reeeeally tight pants *ROFL*

Thanks for sharing! *hugs* B
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:26 pm (UTC)
Heee! Thanks so much, and I'm glad you enjoyed the story!
Aug. 6th, 2009 07:33 pm (UTC)
This was a joy to read. Really engaging, and it was such a pleasure to be able to concentrate on the story without having to stop every few paragraphs to cringe over baseball mistakes! Thank you for that, and for the way you blended the boys and the game so nicely.
Aug. 6th, 2009 10:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm especially glad there weren't too many glaring baseball mistakes.
Aug. 6th, 2009 08:48 pm (UTC)
I just absolutely adored this. I'm a sucker for a good sports AU (even baseball ones and I'm not a baseball fan). I love that you focused on the story instead of giving us a bunch of sex scenes. I love the buildup before you ever got to the sex. And I love love love Jensen in the off season.
Aug. 6th, 2009 10:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm glad it worked for you.
Aug. 6th, 2009 08:49 pm (UTC)
That was fantastic. I absolutely love the whole antagonists-falling-for-each other story, and I really enjoyed this. I also really liked that you didn't go for the obvious baseball cliches (the team coming from behind to win it all, or Jensen completely flipping out when he found out about the clause in Jared's contract.)
Aug. 6th, 2009 10:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! I'm very glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 6th, 2009 09:40 pm (UTC)
Just read an American Football fic, and now Baseball. Have never seen a game of either, don't understand either, but still enjoyed both stories! :D

Loved your build-up with this.

Why is cranky/mean Jensen so hot? What make's it better I think, is that Jared is a good guy in this, but not 'sqeaky-clean' good. He has history. He has layers and I think that's interesting for Jensen.

I'd love to see snippets to this!


Aug. 6th, 2009 10:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much! I'm really glad you enjoyed the fic.
Aug. 6th, 2009 10:34 pm (UTC)
I really liked this! Thank you for sharing!:)
Aug. 6th, 2009 10:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading!
Aug. 7th, 2009 03:01 am (UTC)
This was adorable! I love snarky!Jen!!! Great job :)
Aug. 7th, 2009 04:02 am (UTC)
Thanks very much!
Aug. 7th, 2009 05:12 am (UTC)
I loathe baseball. I find it tedious and pointless and I despise the fact that it's called a sport when it can be played by out of shape tobacco chewers. When people start talking stats, I get disproportionately annoyed. (Jeeze, I sound like your Ackles here!)

I read a baseball fic I liked a while ago, though, so I figured I'd suck it up and give this a shot too.

I loved this story. It made me like baseball for the duration of the story and get behind the relationship between pitcher and catcher (haha). I thought it was well written, I loved the characters you created and the way their relationship progressed. I loved the side characters and how crappy the team was even at the end. I thought it was funny and smart and hot and adorable and I thorougly enjoyed reading it.

So good job! And thank you for sharing!
Aug. 7th, 2009 05:13 am (UTC)
Ps. My icon is not in relation to your writing, it is a self-deprecating comment about how much I dislike baseball. :)
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Aug. 7th, 2009 08:58 pm (UTC)
Oh, that was gobs of fun! So sexy.

Aug. 8th, 2009 12:09 am (UTC)
Thank you! Glad you enjoyed.
Aug. 8th, 2009 10:34 am (UTC)
I love sports AUs even if I have no clue about the sports sometimes *g*

great story, I enjoyed it a lot, thanks for sharing!!!!
Aug. 8th, 2009 11:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 8th, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)
This was so adorable! Reading it was like reading about the taming of a wild beast. Seeing at how I read the Black Stallion around a 1000 times when I was a kid, I'm not surprised I liked your fic that much.

I loved how the evolution was so gradual between them, and how Jensen changed but still stayed the same. I mean, he didn't turn into a nice guy, and that's good!

I'm also a fervent supporter of Jared having the control in the bed.... ;P

Thanks for sharing, I had a great time reading. :)
Aug. 8th, 2009 11:57 pm (UTC)
Heee! Thanks so much - I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 9th, 2009 12:11 am (UTC)
There's nothing better than a bench clearing brawl.

I like your characters and their interaction, and how naturally they *cough* slid into their relationship.

Aug. 9th, 2009 03:02 am (UTC)
No, thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 9th, 2009 02:59 pm (UTC)
This was a joy to read. Thanks for sharing :)
Aug. 9th, 2009 06:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you for commenting! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Aug. 9th, 2009 03:58 pm (UTC)
Oooh, I really liked this! You managed to really convince me with ornery Jensen! He was hilarious and a little frightening! VERY well done :D
Aug. 9th, 2009 06:33 pm (UTC)
Heee, thanks very much! He's a little frightening to me as well. Glad you enjoyed.
Aug. 9th, 2009 04:35 pm (UTC)
Aw, this was so good! Thanks for writing :D
Aug. 9th, 2009 06:33 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much for reading!
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Aug. 9th, 2009 11:58 pm (UTC)
Thanks very much! I love how you phrased that, since that's pretty much what I was going for. I'm glad you enjoyed the fic.
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